tonight I thought of skipping my usual tv show night and head for my Blog instead, for an “old” chitchat, as I believe it has been a while since I last openly just talked to you, on a direct post.
First thanks for your support, I reached 124 followers on TRV girl, which for me is a huge number, and thanks to you I often get the chance my self to step into wonderful Blogs that inspire me so much.
I know… I am not very good in keeping up with my schedule blog-posting so really THANKS for hanging there… in the often messy mind flowing that travels from my brain into every week articles!It means the world to me.
Lately, I don’t know if it is the weather, the flue, or simply the fact that I am a little emotional for some reason… I have been felling quite troubled and anxious… I know that writing down stuff usually helps me, that is why i am doing it right, now.
I believe, it’s important to talk about stuff especially when something bothers you a lot or when it starts to make you feel uncomfortable and anxious. Anxiety is something I usually face a lot and towards which I have a very personal response… sometimes …most of the times… I reach a point in which I just shut down completely.
I reach a point in which my body decides for my brain ( if that makes any sense..) I am not sure if it’s a physical exhaustion response .. but I just go blank… like I forget everything, stepping into a far away world deep in my mind.. where anxiety cannot hunt me. Unfortunately ,this is very much temporary solution, that however works quite well, I must say especially for those “bothering” everyday problems ( I mean not really important things.. the kind that seems more dramatic than they really are..)
However, when I face a real issues, that devious anxiety leads me to an awful panic response, where my heart starts raising, my mouth goes dry and I start to feel like I am gonna burst into tears anytime… it’s the worst.. I am no sure is panic attack.. but it certainly is not fun to go through…
Thank goodness, eventually my body goes again in some kind of “hard reset mode” and everything slowly fades until I am calm… although sometimes, I end up feeling sad and a little crappy about myself, like i cannot handle properly the situation.
I don’t know if some of you go through this same experience, but if you are.. well your not the only one as you can see… and as I am exposing myself a little bit here …talking about it usually helps exorcise any fear or shame you have about it, even if it’s just you talking to yourself through your blog.
Well this chat turned out to be much more serious and intense, but I hope you got my point …Ok I guess that’s it for my ” I am feeling under the weather” blog post…
Hope you all are doing really well!
Goodnight lovely people